Date Written: March 21, 2020
It was painful but I was grateful.
It was sad but I found new source of happiness.
It was dark but I discovered new light.
My world has been shattered but I have explored the other
side of it.
My heart was broken into million pieces but I became
unbreakable.
I thought I will never move on but I have moved forward.
At first, I don’t know what to do but in the end; there’s
a lot of things to do and I can still do!
I thought that half of me was lost, but in reality, I was
more of I can be.
Thank you so much when you chose to leave, thank you when
left me broken and lost. I’ve got another chance in life that I never thought
that I can have.
It is really true that when we got our heart broken, we will
try to do different things and we will go to different places that we have
never been yet. We will also have the courage to meet new people and to escape
out of our comfort zones.
When the love of my life left me, I finally had the courage
to dare myself to do what I really wanted to do. All of those things were just on my bucket
list and I have found the very perfect timing to one by one tick it.
Here’s some of the things I have done while healing my
heart:
- To volunteer. I went on a slum community,
to feed hundreds of kids, to teach poor children and to give love, happiness,
care to those in need. It wasn’t easy. I got scared to go alone. It was scary
to go to place I am not familiar with and to meet other people.
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To meet new people. I have discovered that outside what I was used
to, there’s a lot of people who grew up differently from mine. Their norm was
different from my norm. Their lifestyle and family background differed from
mine. But even though we all came from different walks of lives; I was
fortunate to befriend some of them. It was such a fulfilling feeling to
befriend strangers, to be an extrovert once in a while. I have also learned
that people will really come and go into our lives. Some will stay but most of
them will just pass by.
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To go to the places, I have never been yet. Travelling
nowadays is the latest trend. Most of the people my age as young as they can
be, invested on travelling. Experience will always be better than material
things. Beaches are my greatest escaping zones.
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To conquer mountains but actually, it is
myself that I am conquering. Hiking also became a hype. From weekend night
clubs into mountain summits just before the sun rises. People switched to
hiking and camping instead of partying at bars. Views from the mountain top are
better than disco lights. I was fortunate to hike more than 30 mountains as of
this writing and I thank God for always protecting me whenever I go to another
adventure. Through hiking, I also got to meet new people and some of them even
became my friends.
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To travel alone. This is scary but I was
happy that in this lifetime, I’ve tried it. It is really scary but thrilling.
And at the end of the day when you got home, you will be proud of your self and
be thankful for everything.
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To write more. When I was broken, I was able
to write more stories and it was even got approved! I have regularly updated my
blog as well. Through writing, I have expressed my true feelings and thoughts.
This has been the best tool that I had when healing my heart.
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To cherish more people who are around me.
It is true that when someone leave you, you will more appreciate those who
chose to stay for you. We are more than lucky by having friends and family whom
we can run and will never ever leave us. We can also share our griefs with them
to lighten the burden we are feeling.
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To learn new things like the Korean language.
Crazy enough, I enrolled on a Korean class. And because of this, I have learned
their alphabets and can read it. I may not fully understand yet what I am
reading because it takes a lot of time to memorize their dictionary but it felt
proud that somehow, I have learned a new skill.
Dear My Love,
Thank you for leaving me as I was able to do things that
I thought I will never do and meet new people I thought I won’t have to. I’ve
been to places I didn’t imagine to go without you. I’ve also got to experience
life from another perspective. I thought my whole world was you but I’ve
discovered that you were just a small part of it and there’s more to it. I’ve
grew up! And became a better version of myself.
I will be forever grateful.
Yours,
Diwata Blog
