Most of my blog posts here were about my travels and adventures and since we can't travel yet, I filled my journal with my almost everyday routine.
Sharing with you some of my journal entries from March to December 2020. These were my random thoughts that I had the chance to put in writing.
Putting it here also so someday I can look back on what I have been through this year of 2020.
By the end of 2019, I looked forward to a better 2020 and I claimed that this would be my best year but my expectations failed me and it's alright. I just believe that this was just a pause and we can still continue. Life goes on and we will get through this. Besides, there were happy moments that I have still got to experience this year.
Happy reading!
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March 17, 2020. Tuesday.
Enhanced community quarantine was implemented and everyone was advised to stay home.
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March 18, 2020. Wednesday.
I chose to find humanity and kindness all over my feed. There’s a lot of sad and annoying stories you can read and then be stressed. But there’s also a lot of stories of humanity and kindness that you can find on the internet. I chose to focus on the latter.
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When boredom strikes.
March 19, 2020. Thursday.
I tried to do several things today but everything I did, I got bored.
I tried to write, read and watch just to make this day productive but I still ended up being bored on every thing that I tried to do.
This just simply reflects my life right now. I still don’t know what to do with my life yet so I still felt empty...and unhappy. I guess I was never content. Or maybe I don’t have enough resources to do what I really want to do. Maybe also I’m too lazy to pursue what I really want to happen in my life.
Sometimes I plan but I never stick to it. Yes, I’m inconsistent so I get bored. I’m not motivated, nor inspired and the best word that can describe me is undisciplined.
I usually list down all the things that I need and want to do but I’m never consistent.
I hope tomorrow will be a more productive and better day.
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In the middle of chaos, let’s find kindness.
March 20, 2020. Friday.
Today is March 20, 2020.
Let me tell you how my day went today.
I went to the grocery to buy some stocks. Social distancing was practiced in the grocery. We have to wait for our turn to enter as they are limiting the number of customers inside the selling area. While waiting you have to be one meter apart from the person on your front and behind you.
Today, I appreciated a lot of all the grocery personnel. From the guards, maintenance, promodisers and cashiers, kudos to all our frontliners who are risking their lives and can’t stay home.
When I’m already at the cashier, the pretty old lady approached me and asked if I had a rewards card so I could claim her points.
It was a little kindness but it was very much appreciated.
Everyday, let’s choose kindness whatever life will throw at us.
On this lockdown, let’s look for the brighter side.
Dwelled into local documentaries today.
While watching the documentaries by Kara David, I secretly dreamed of being a researcher, journalist, writer like her.
I want to know more about life away from what I used to as there are thousands of stories to tell to the world. There’s a lot of different realities that I want to discover and to experience and to learn from.
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March 21, 2020. Saturday.
Woke up at 12nn then had brunch.
My plan for today is to write more. Aside from this journal, I also want to update my blogs, edit some photos and write more.
There’s a bunch of clothes to wash. Ha-ha.
Will be limiting the Social Media so I can be more productive today.
I also plan to learn new things for the coming days, like learning new languages, stocks and more literature.
I also want to paint though it will be messy and I only have a small room.
So glad that I was able to write some blog updates today!
Slept at 4 am watching documentaries and tutorial vids.
March 22, 2020. Sunday.
Watching Filipino Classic films also got my interest today.
Watched Temptation Island and differentiate old movies to modern. It's way differ but there’s also common things that we still do today.
I’m still into documentaries. I also watched tutorial videos for swimming and driving.
I am also thinking of taking an online course for creative writing. I also plan to write a series of poems and random thoughts while we are on a quarantine. Still practicing Social Media Distancing so I can do more.
Wash clothes for an exercise.
Will also do blog posting today.
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March 23, 2020 Monday
2nd week of Enhanced Community Quarantine and here I am still thinking of things to do to make this stay home productive.
Will the below list be considered as productive?
Watching local documentaries
Reading self-help books
Writing blogs
Watching films to keep me out of boredom
March 24, 2020 Tuesday
Finally updated my blogs. I usually got lazy in doing this because it takes a lot of time being online as I also consider my limited internet connection.
But finally, I had the time to update my two personal blogs. And I kept on writing. 😊
Also, I’m on a nocturnal mode these past few days. I usually sleep at 3-4 am then wake up at past 12 noon.
March 25, 2020 Wednesday
Woke up at 3 pm today and I had a work call from my immediate head. We will be finalizing our Special project for our KPI.
I just finished my online course about Writing Skills today. Yey! I started at 9pm and finished before 12 midnight. There were breaks in between so I won’t get bored and info overload. I take time to absorb everything I’ve learned today. 500 pesos was worth it. 😊
Still had to finish our special project for KPI though.
Done with the special project at past midnight.
March 26, 2020 Thursday
Woke up at 1pm today.
Watched some romance movies like PS. I love you and After.
Created my PAGER Template today for my future write ups.
Also created an Idea Bank where I will write all kinds of stuff that I can write.
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March 27, 2020 Friday
3rd week of Community Quarantine coming up.
Hope that this will end soon.
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March 28, 2020 Saturday
Day 14 of ECQ. Two weeks had passed. And we are still clueless of what tomorrow will bring.
Numbers of covid-19 positives are still rising. We are still praying to flatten the curve.
All we can do is to pray and hope that tomorrow will be better and the virus will be gone.
Expenses will still be there despite the quarantine.
March 29, 2020 Sunday
My body clock got worse. Sleeping at 6:30 am when the sun’s already up.
Didn’t write anything today. I just spent my whole day lying in bed, watched movies/kdrama and on Social Media.
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March 30, 2020 Monday
Updated my daily journal today and hopefully to write more entries.
We still have two more weeks…
To reflect, to pray, to do what we needed to do, to write more, to learn, to realize.
April 1, 2020 – Wednesday
April Fool’s Day.
Jokes have no space in the world today.
“The world is finally covid-19 free!” This is not an April Fool’s Day entry but a prayer.
We pray to get back on the normal very soon!
April 2, 2020 – Thursday
Papa’s 12th death anniversary. We can’t visit him due to ECQ but once the quarantine is over, we’ll pay him a visit.
April 3, 2020 – Friday
There’s time like this that I get so lazy to write or to do productive things because of the posts I read on Social Media. I know that I shouldn’t be affected much but I just can’t help it.
Spent most of the time watching films and short videos/vlogs on Facebook.
April 4, 2020 – Saturday
Still a Lazy day for me. But go to write on my planner and update my IG ECQ Diary.
April 5, 2020 – Sunday
Watched the movie, Ang Babaeng Allergic sa WiFi, and made a write up about it.
Uploaded on my blog site.
April 6, 2020 – Monday
Listed my things to do so I can push myself to be productive everyday – for the rest of the quarantine.
Grocery Time.
Learn the Baybayin Language and write for my Journal entries
Sort photos for printing, delete doubled photos to save more memories on my HD.
Read my self-help e-books.
Update my blogs. – Done.
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April 22, 2020 – Thursday
A man from the past came back…
Will just make a blog post for this.
Didn’t update this ECQ diary that much because I preferred writing in my planner and making journal entries with no dates. I also wrote down my things to do list in a notebook. At the back of my journal entries.
Whatever thoughts came in my mind, I just wrote it down as journal entries.
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Quarantine Random Thoughts
March 2020
Journal Entry No. 1: YET
To places we have never been yet
To the things we have never done yet
To the experiences we haven’t tried yet
To all the food we haven’t ate yet
Let’s do all of these when this ‘unnormal’ is finally over.
We may have a lot of regrets
That we didn’t do all those things yet
But it’s never too late yet.
Let this tie alone be our reflection
And to think over what we really wanted to do in life.
I relisted all the places I want to go and things I want to do.
I wrote it in my dream notebook.
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March 2020
Journal Entry No. 2: I LOVE THIS TIME
This a lot of free time I have right now
Is such a blessing in disguise.
This is a temporary escape from my normal reality
And just a finding time to the real me
I always look forward to a long vacation
Away from my stressful work and as usual days
For this time, I’m thankful for all that I have
Time for my passion and that includes writing.
This may be a hard time for a lot of people
But let’s just focus on the brighter side.
Let’s do all the indoor things that we love and miss to do
To spend more time with our loved ones
We may have a world-wide lockdown now
But at least the world we are living in is also taking time to rest.
Things I do nowadays:
Writing blogs, journals, poems, drafting stories
Watching documentaries, interesting travel blogs, tutorial video lessons
Taking online courses about creative writings
Self-reflecting
Reading
Making sure that every day is a learning and productive day.
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March 2020
Entry No. 3: MOUNTAINS AND ME
Mountains…
My favorite playground, my escaping zone,
My safe haven, my home away from home,
my breathing ground, my happy place,
my view that always leave me amaze and breathless.
This is how I described mountains.
At first, it was my outside-the-comfort-zone area
but now it is my safe haven place.
It was surely scary at first but as time passed by
and numerous adventures passed on,
I got used to it
and I always love to be on top of it.
Mountains, rivers, forest and falls (including the beach!)
This is where I run when I was broken
And it made me whole again
I will keep on coming back
Because this is home
Because nature and I are one.
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March 2020
Entry no. 4: YOLO with Precautions
We only live once so why not make the best out of it?
But we also die once, so above all, safety first.
We will always be challenged to push to our limits
And once in a while, we should step out of our comfort box
And live our life beyond our normal days.
This would describe YOLO. (You only live once)
But actually, even without going to places, travelling, daring ourselves
To do extraordinary, it is just to simply appreciate the life that we have.
And also to love more all the people around us.
Less complaining but counting all the blessings that we have,
By simply living now, we are already beyond blessed and that’s one thing
We should be grateful for it.
Because of life itself, we get the chance to experience it!
We will never know, when our lives will end, but we know that TODAY
Is the thing that we can control and do something about.
Let’s appreciate life more. Let’s be more grateful.
That we lived even just for once.
Thank You Lord, for the gift of life.
I wrote this journal entry after watching a Kdrama titled, Hello,Bye Mama. It is a story of a young mother who died of an accident and became a ghost that lurked around her daughter and husband. Five years after being a ghost, she got a chance to live again like a normal human being but it will never be the same way again like before. She can’t go back to the life she once had.
She had a lot of realizations when she died, even the people around her. They have a lot of regrets and realizations when she passed away.
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March 2020
Entry No. 5: LIVING TO LOVE. LOVING TO LIVE.
LIVING TO LOVE. LOVING TO LIVE.
This is one of my favorite quotes.
In this lifetime that we have, let us all grab the chance to experience love.
Because when we love, we will know and feel that life is worth living.
Loving doesn’t only mean towards a partner as this also applies to our self, family, friends, other people and most especially our creator.
Proven and tested, when we love, it will make us happy.
So, let’s always love and live life to the fullest.
P.S. I also know that in loving, there will also be some pain. But that’s life and that’s how we will get used to it.
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March 2020
Entry No. 6: BREAKING THE PROMISE
A Poem
I still hold on to the yesterday that we had
And I still love and want you so bad
Even though you already let me go
You don’t love me anymore, I know.
We’ve already said goodbye for many times
We even had heartfelt thanks and countless cries
We also had each other’s hugs and final kiss
But here I am, still holding on to an old promise
A promise that we’ll never let each other go,
Choosing “US” everyday that’s all I know
But people change and so our feelings
Happy moments will have sad endings
This is hard and has put my heart into broken pieces
But all I want is for your happiness
It’s about time to finally let you go
And break the promises that once we’ve held on to
I wrote this poem, reliving the pain I felt when I got my heart broken years ago.
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March 2020
Entry no. 9: MY DREAM WEDDING
Just like many girls do (and guys), I also dreamed of a church wedding someday.
But as I grew up, my ideals and visions changed.
Practicality leads my life.
I started to be practical, depending on reality and just live within my means.
As of today's reality, it is not a church wedding anymore that I prioritized but the life after the wedding that we will have.
What’s the use of a grand wedding if after that day, we will get hungry and much worse, will be in debt?
After all, it’s the marriage that we have to work on every single day.
But of course, I still dream.
And I want it to happen in Batanes! Whether a church wedding or be it a civil one, I want it to be there.
It may still be costly but I still want to give it a try. I even told this to my boyfriend and he agrees with me! My heart is already more than happy.
I will see you soon, Batanes. Very Soon. My dream wedding will happen in your beautiful land.
In order to make this dream come true, we have to work for it.
Things to do to make this happen.
Book a Flight to Batanes
Find an officiating priest/official/town mayor.
Save money for this. (at least 100K)
Trust the Lord God that this will happen soon.
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March 2020
Entry No. 10: DO EVERYTHING THAT YOU CAN TODAY
We will never know what will happen tomorrow
We will never know until when we’ll live and finally leave
We will never know until when we can spend time with loved ones
Time will always be the most precious thing we have
So, we need to use this worthy.
Let’s do all the things that we can today
And spare the time tomorrow to be better
In this way, we are living our life in its fullest.
Do everything today.
So, if there will still be tomorrow,
There’ll be more chances that we can do more.
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March 2020
Entry No. 12: DEAR MY LOVE, THANKS FOR MY ME TIME
(I also write unsent letters to the love of my life)
Dear My Love,
Thank you for my Me Times.
Thanks for letting me do things on my own.
And to go to places I want to go alone.
When there’s things I want to learn
And places or stuffs I want to discover
I always have your whole support.
You are my greatest support system.
I am so lucky to have you and to have someone
Whom I can share all my dreams and passion with.
We may be together as one but we still
Have our own personal identities and interests
That will never cease to exist.
Thank you for supporting the things that
I know that can and will bring out the best in me.
I love you.
P.S. I’ll have some coffee
For this time of Me again.
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March 2020
Entry No. 13: THEATER ARTS – A SECRET DREAM
When I was young, I dreamed of becoming a theater artist. But my singing voice won't allow me to. And as I grow older, my next dream turned to becoming a scriptwriter for a stage play. I love directing and writing scripts for our school project when I was in high school.
It was also a top secret that when I was a college freshman, I auditioned for school play even though my voice and acting talent was in its greyish form. In short, I failed. I feared rejection so I never tried it again.
This dream remained as a secret forever.
But every time, I had the chance to watch theatre plays, my secret dream is reliving.
Maybe I still dream of writing for stage plays!
Who knows?
It’s still never too late to fulfill that secret dream.
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April 2020
Entry No. 14: IN LEARNING NEW THINGS IN THIS PANDEMIC SITUATION
We’re still on a world-wide home quarantine where everything is shut down and everyone is advised and demanded to stay home for few more weeks.
Creating this daily journal has been one of my ways to keep me sane and to make my days somehow productive.
Aside from writing in my journal, one of the best ways to spend these quarantine days is to learn something new like knowledge or skills.
I put in my mind that every single day, I must have something new to learn through reading and watching tutorials or knowledge videos.
For the past few days, I spent it (though not documented), watching local documentary shows and tutorial/ knowledge videos. I love reading theories or other people’s experiences and somehow, hopefully I can apply it as well in my own life or to share the knowledge I’ve learned with others.
These new learnings will also be part of my journal entries from now on.
Let’s try and do this as a habit even if the quarantine period will be over.
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April 2020
Entry No. 16: LOVE WILL ALWAYS BE A CHOICE
April 2020
Entry No. 17: ON SECOND CHANCE
In giving you a second chance,
And being with you again,
Starting all over again…
I am choosing everyday
Not just to love you again
But it is also to forgive you
And go on with our life together.
You’ve caused me loneliness
But you are also my happiness
So, I gave it a shot.
I gave “US” a second chance
And I also gave you a last chance
To prove that this gamble called, our love
Is worth to fight for
This is our fight together
To make this work this time around
We are a team
And more than lovers, so are we.
Note: Sometimes, love for the second time is worth a try.
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April 2020
Entry No. 18: WHAT IS REALLY MY DREAM
I am reading this book by John Maxwell entitled, “Three Things Successful People Do”.
I am not done yet and currently on page 25.
While reading the said book, I take down notes so I won’t forget what I have read.
I also put on my notes this question:
What is really my dream?
According to the book, the real meaning of success is the journey itself. And it’s finding our true potential then helping others.
So, what do I really do best?
There’s one thing that always enters my mind. And that is writing.
I may not be good at this and I usually get lazy on writing but this is really my dream since I was young. I always dreamt of being a writer.
A dream that I am still not living to because I have to earn using my degree which is very irrelevant to my chosen passion.
To make it short, I chose practicality over passion.
I have to live my life the practical way so I can help in supporting my daily life and my family as well.
But I can still get to write. And this is for a hobby only and truth to be told, I’m not good at it.
I don’t know yet how my passion for writing will become a success and I am still finding my way to it.
Hopefully soon.
I’m still working on it and may the Lord God will guide me on this writing career that I still want to pursue.
How about you?
What is your dream?
Are you already living with it or pursuing it?
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April 2020
Entry No. 19: FOREVER BY JUDY BLUME
Judy Blume is my growing up author. I can totally relate to all her characters regardless of age and gender. Whether it’s 9 year of age up to 40ish, I loved all the people in her novels.
Her stories catch my attention and my heart.
This book I recently ended reading was entitled, “Forever”. This was about an 18-year-old girl with her LOL (that’s my childish term my Love of My Life). This young couple thought that what they have is for forever.
But when reality hits, they knew it wouldn’t and it will really take a lot of time and circumstances before you can finally say that they are truly meant for each other.
I also loved how the author discussed about sex education, early pregnancy issues and the social norms.
Kath, the lead character, is relatable and real. I can say that I was just and think like her when I was that age. Her thoughts about her dream and plans in life before getting involved in a more serious relationship and eventually getting pregnant is totally sensible and realistic. I love her maturity and being straightforward.
She uses her heart to be happy but she also uses her head better. Her decision-making skills outstand her age. Aside from Michael, whom she thought was her forever, there’s more to life.
I love you, Judy Blume! Always and forever!
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April 2020
Entry No. 20: LEARNING THE BAYBAYIN
It is always fun to learn new things and even discover things.
It has been my hobby to randomly read Wikipedia to learn new things and gain new knowledge.
Today, I am learning Baybayin. Baybayin is a pre-Spanish Philippine writing system. Before the invaders came to the country, this was widely used but after many years passed, this has been put into the forgotten lane. With the Filipino language, which is an adaptation of the foreign language, our very own Baybayin was almost forgotten.
It is glad to know that some of the youths today are learning this writing system. It is like reliving our history and yesterday’s way of life.
This is also being taught in some schools nowadays.
I tried to memorize how the letters were written and gladly within an hour I’ve learned it!
Yey! Achievement unlocked!
I am still practicing though so I will not forget it.
How about you?
What new things did you learn today?
I will always believe that as long as we live, there’s never “too late” for something new to learn.
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April 2020
Entry No. 21: CHOOSING THE GOOD
I’ve decided to just focus on the good news, the lighter and brighter side of everything.
With all the negativity and chaos around us, let’s choose the good side. I don’t want to waste my energy and invest my emotions to all the bad things and toxic news around me.
We will always have choices in life.
There’s no such thing as NO CHOICE.
“No choice” is still a choice.
Today, let’s choose to be the bigger person in every circumstance that we are facing and focus on the good.
Today I choose to fill my surroundings with a positive perspective. In this way, we can have a peaceful mind and our hearts will always be happy. In this way, we can also avoid stress. As we know, stresses can only lead to sickness, bad relationships with our loved ones, friends and colleagues and can also cause greyness in our lives.
Be the light in the darkness.
Never lose hope.
Don’t give up.
Have faith.
We will get through this.
I hope I can bring this kind of mindset when I get back to work.
April 2020
Entry No. 22: EVERYDAY LEARNING
Here’s some of the things I have learned today:
For the first time, I watched the vlog of Neri and Chito Miranda and I really learned a lot. Here’s the few:
Waking up early (as early as 4 am) to start your day. This is for the “Me Time” wherein we can write in our journals, things to do for the day, our dreams and plans, and also for learning something new.
Having three sets of notebooks for the Dream Notebook, Things to Do, New Learnings Notebook to list down all the things that we need or thinking.
Everyday, learn something new.
List down our dreams so we can back track what we have already achieved or what we are planning to achieve, also for status updates of our dreams, goals and plans. And never stop dreaming.
“Buy things that will make you earn more money.”
Couple’s money can be separated.
Husband – providing for the family, savings, wants/investments
Wife – money is for business/investments, savings, wants
I followed Neri’s IG because her dreams are also my dreams.
Businesses, resort, restaurant, food business, fruit and vegetable garden, library (Me Time Room), leafy front yard.
So glad that she’s living her dream and still striving to be better.
Though I’m still on the dreaming stage, I believe that I can also do it!
Kung kaya niya, kaya ko rin!
Lord God will guide me.
And then I will pay it forward.
Note to Self:
A DREAM WITHOUT ACTION IS NOTHING.
DREAM. PLAN. ACHIEVE. PAY IT FORWARD.
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April 2020
Entry No. 23: PLOTTING MY DREAMS AND GOALS IN LIFE
Two years from now, I want to leave the corporate world so I can finally live my dreams.
How will I do this?
Let’s take this step by step:
Finding out what do I really want to do:
Work from home, online business
Writing for a movie / TV series
Writing books and sell it online
Stocks and Investments
What should I need to do to achieve the things I want to do?
Save enough money for early retirement (from the corporate world).
Look for feasible business that will work for me.
Learn more about work from home jobs.
Spend more time writing and practicing skills. DISCIPLINE NOT INSPIRATION.
Learn the stocks world.
Save for investments. (at least 100K)
Again, note to self: A DREAM WITHOUT ACTION IS NOTHING.
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April 2020
Entry No. 24: READING THE BIBLE AGAIN
It’s been awhile since I read the bible. It was only until now that I started reading again (after the holy week).
And for the first time again, I read the book of Luke 24 which was about Jesus being Risen. Jesus died on the cross and after three days came back to life and went to heaven to sit on the right side of God the Father.
Jesus died in the cross for our sins and He truly deserves to be praised. I may say that I’m not that much religious but all I know is that I believe in Him. He is my Saviour, my Guidance, my Strength, my Wisdom and my Protection.
I talked to God every day, thanking Him, and asking for forgiveness, blessings, wisdom and good health not only for myself for my loved ones and for my country.
He listens. Always.
Just believe in Him.
I’ll do my best to wake up early every day (from 5-6 am onwards) for my daily “Me Time” and this includes reading the bible, reflecting on it and talking to God.
My Me Time List: (Daily 5-6 am onwards)
Read the Bible, reflect on it, Talk to God
Update my To-Do list, Journal, Planner, Dream Notebook
Learn Something New
Work Out
Note to Self: CONSISTENCY IS THE KEY.
11 TIMES YOU MAKE IT DAILY, IT BECOMES A HABIT.
April 2020
Entry No. 25: WHAT I LEARNED TODAY
I’m trying my best to learn something new everyday to somehow make my day productive.
Here’s what I have learned today:
I dreamed of having my own personal car, family van and travel van someday. And in order to do that, I should know how to drive.
So today, I watched on Youtube some tutorial videos for driving both manual and automatic vehicles.
It gave me some ideas about driving. Of course, I know that it is different to learn from an actual driving experience. But it’s okay. I just want to know the basics.
Here’s another thing I have learned today. I saw this on my Facebook Feed. I learned about this NEW SMART acronym for perfect health. We must take care of our body so we can live our purpose and we can make the best of our lifetime.
NEW SMART stands for:
NUTRITION
EXERCISE
WATER
SUNLIGHT
TEMPERANCE
AIR
REST
TRUST IN LORD
I totally agree with this practice and hopefully I can always apply this to my lifestyle.
I also got some ideas for an ideal balcony. Than to leave it boring, it will be better if we can put some couch, sofa bed, table and chairs, fairy lights, books, plants, etc. and it’s perfect with a view!
No need to get out of the house because an ideal balcony is already perfect for a hangout/dine out place.
There you have it! These are the things I’ve learned today.
Everyday is a learning process and it never stops!
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April 2020
Entry No. 26: STORY PLOT FROM A DREAM
This often happens to me…
I used to dream of stories that I will write about.
Most of the time, I know that I dreamed of something but I usually forget about it.
But last night, I remembered my dream and wrote it down so I won’t forget about it.
This is a story of a girl with two sisters. They are competing for a company position of being the sole heiress. But they always run away. Then a whole story finally came into my mind. I already plotted its whole story and am just pending to write the whole novel.
Aside from remembering my dream, I also have the capacity to control what is happening in my dream. As if my conscious mind is taking over my subconscious or dreaming mind.
I really do believe that our brain has the most power in this world and even in the outside world or outer space. We have the capacity to travel through time and to the other world through the power of our own minds.
Back to my dreams, hopefully this one I dreamed about will eventually turn into a book! Or better into a movie! I really do hope. Maybe my subconscious mind is helping me fulfill my dreams.
Thank you, Lord for showing me signs on a random basis.
p.s. Days after I dreamed about this plot, I dreamed and remembered again a new story. But I don’t like it.
It was a story of a fat and black girl who becomes beautiful whenever it is needed as if she’s a superhero or something. It’s a fantasy type of genre.
I don’t like the concept of discrimination against women so I scratched off this story plot.
April 2020
Entry No. 27: LEARNING SOMETHING NEW TODAY
Today, I learned something new about myself.
I’ve found out that I am so conscious of whatever my partner would react, say or do.
I am always reactive towards him.
For example, awhile ago, he hurt his throat and I immediately got him water.
I also always observe what he is doing even if I am busy attending to other things or chores. I would also always think if what he will say or do is right or wrong. Whenever it feels wrong, I correct him.
That’s how I am used to being.
And maybe it is because of love.
April 2020
Entry No. 28: WHAT I LEARNED ON THIS QUARANTINE
REST OR PAUSE.
This is the best thing I have learned on this world-wide quarantine. Everyone should take time to rest, to reflect, to spend more time with the family, to reconnect and talk more with God.
It’s just a bonus to take time to learn new skills/hobbies. Let’s be grateful for this given time for us to stay indoor and be safe on the comforts of our home. Self-care is also what we need in these trying times.
SAVE! SAVE! SAVE! FOR EMERGENCY.
It is really important to build an emergency fund in an unexpected time like this. Crisis is unpredictable and no one knows when it will happen or when it will last. It will always be better to be prepared all the time. Let’s have this kind of mindset that we cannot depend on others but only to ourselves in order to survive. In this way, we will be responsible enough to only relay to ourselves. Especially if our family depends on us, we must be the stronger wall.
ALWAYS BE PRODUCTIVE.
Even though we are in a quarantine, we can still learn and do something productive. Aside from Netflix and chill and eating and laying around at all times, there’s still a lot of things to do get away from boredom.
Examples are below:
Learning new skills and gaining new knowledge through online courses, tutorial videos or by just simply reading a book.
Gardening (vegetables, fruits or flowers)
Cooking, cleaning, decluttering.
Talking with our loved ones about plans and goals and taking care of each other.
Talking to God.
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April 2020
Entry No. 29: ON LIFE AND MISTAKES
“It is not how we make mistakes, but how we correct it is what defined us.”
This is a beautiful quote I got from watching a kid’s film entitled, “Wishmas Tree”
In life, we always make mistakes. We can’t avoid it. By choice or by fate we will really commit mistakes. And it’s okay because that is life all about.
Creating mistakes and learning from it.
At first, I thought that when we learned from our mistakes, that’s it! But actually, it doesn’t.
It is on how we correct our mistakes.
In this life, we may fall and fail, but there’s always a way to rise up and correct our wrong doings or decisions.
Never give up. I always live up to this saying.
For as long as we live, there’s always hope. And as long as we live, there’s always a new morning and another new day that we wake up to, we have the chance to make ourselves better.
To better days ahead!
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April 2020
Entry No. 30: 2 CORINTHIANS 1
“2 CORINTHIANS 1:3 – Praised be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.”
My reflection on this:
This verse is very timely with today’s pandemic crisis that the whole world is suffering. God will comfort us especially those who are severely affected. Let the poor have something to eat until this is all over.
I am also praying to God that poor and hungry families will be blessed with abundance of food, shelter, and comfort. And to those who are sick, may they be healed.
Those who greatly suffered, In God’s hand and touch you will be alright.
Thank you, Lord Jesus for healing our land.
2 Corinthians 1:24 – Because it is by faith you stand firm.”
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April 2020
Entry No. 32: CREATING MILK TEA FROM SCRATCH
I tried to order milk tea on GrabFood but had thought twice before pressing the order button.
I reminded myself to consider my budget and to save money instead. In order to fill my cravings, I just decided to buy ice and tea bags from a retail store near our house.
We have powdered milk and sugar at home so it’s all that we need!
I made milk tea from scratch!
Powdered milk, sugar, tea bag, hot water and ice equals voila, Milk tea!
The point of this journal entry is to lead a more practical life and just live below my means so I can save more money for the future and of course in case of emergency.
Instead of buying a 300 pesos worth of Milk Tea, I just spent less than 40 pesos for a home-made one. It was more than 80% off and I have just saved 80% off from my cravings!
And I’m happy and content.
Each time I will have cravings to satisfy, I’ll think of better ways to spend less.
I hope that when everything goes back to normal, I will retain this kind of practical thinking so I can save more money which I can use for more important usage in the future.
Thank you, Lord God for the gift of patience and temperance.
April 2020
Entry No. 33: PLANNING MY FUTURE LIFE
Here’s some of the tips I saw on FB for more savings in the bank.
Everything is possible with hard work and God.
Delayed gratification goes a long way.
Save, save and save.
Long-term investments.
It doesn’t matter how much we earn but on how much we save. We may have different ways of earning but we all have a choice on how we will spend our money.
It will be hard of course but hard work pays off.
My dream bank account remains a dream today but this shall pass and it will grow bigger next time.
Two years from now, I am claiming that it will turn into 6-7-8 digits!
Claiming this in Jesus name, Amen.
When I grow old, I want to be financially stable and secured. In this way, I will not depend on my future children because they have their own lives to live and to build too.
I want to be in a provincial home with a fruitful garden/farm that can sustain our everyday life with my husband. We would be busy with our farm life while enjoying our golden days together.
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April 2020
Entry No. 34: I AM CHOOSING YOU EVERY DAY
I always have doubts and issues
I can always see your flaws
I used to think of leaving you
Because it seems that you can leave me too
Anytime you wanted.
I always get afraid that you may hurt me again
And the past full of pain may still happen
This is an everyday battle within
Of my emotions, of lovin’ and hatin’
But we all have a choice.
Even a no choice is still a choice
And we do our fate
So, despite of all the flaws and fears,
I am still choosing you every day.
Because you are my happiness,
You are my home.
To no more dramas, I just choose you.
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April 2020
Entry No. 35: SETTING UP MY PRODUCTIVE HOURS
Since it is still ECQ, I have to maximize my every day and be productive.
Productivity for me means I did something worth it.
I set up my productive schedule or routine.
Starting my day at 5 in the morning and spending my “Me Time” until 8 am.
In this ‘Me Time’, I have my bible reading, reflecting and talking to God, planner and journal updates and some writings for my manuscripts or blog entries.
And then from 8 am to 9 am is preparing time for work. This includes my work out time, preparing breakfast time, cleaning, washing my clothes.
From 9 am onwards is my working time.
Have a short break at 10:30, then back to work again then lunch break at 12-1.
My working time will end at 5 pm.
Preparing for dinner, chill time that includes Social Media then sleep time at 8 or 9 pm.
That’s my ideal schedule and hopefully I can retain this routine.
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April 2020
Entry No. 36: WHAT IS MY GOAL TODAY?
My dream is to write for a film. And how will I reach this goal?
By starting to write NOW.
And consistency is the key.
I must write every day!
Discipline is a must and time management as well.
Followed by knowledge and wisdom and continuous learning.
May the Lord God will guide me to fulfill this goal someday.
And may myself have the discipline to write everyday and correct my mistakes.
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April 2020
Entry No. 37: THAT DREAM
Maybe it’s a sign that I need to start writing our unfinished story or rather our story that you chose to untimely finish…
I dreamed of you last night
You were smiling so bright
You held my hand so tight
Let it not go with all your might
This brought back our yesterday
Those happy times when we talked all day
But you’re the one who gave ‘us’ up
Who let ‘us’ go and broke our hope
I opened my eyes and now I can see
The painful truth of our reality
That we can’t turn back time again
So that dream just made it possible to happen
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April 2020
Entry No. 39: FRIENDS
Lucky to have friends as your emotional support.
They can be with you whether you're feeling down or happy.
They’ve got your back and you’ve got theirs.
You can share to them your thoughts and feelings,
Your celebrations in life and even challenges you are facing.
You may not meet each other frequently just like before
But with the thoughts of having them around is already enough.
I am also thankful to my friends that I have them.
They are filling my social tank and I’m glad to know that despite
Our own and individual busy lives, when we need each other,
We can talk to each other.
In these trying times, it is really better to have our emotional backbones
In this way, we can feel and know that we are not alone with our battles.
Thank you, Lord and thanks to life for the gift of friends.
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April 2020
Entry No. 40: FINISHING A BOOK IN ONE SITTING
Yey! I finished a book today in just one sitting!
It’s a self-help book entitled, “Declutter Your Mind” by SJ Scott and Barrie Davenport.
I learned a lot today!
And let me share to you some of my key takeaways for this day’s learning.
We humans have naturally had a lot of thoughts running in our heads 24/7. Most of those thoughts are negativities, fantasies, anxieties and worries. By just thinking those kinds of things, we are already wasting our time and effort and it greatly affects our health.
We have the power to control our thoughts and declutter our minds.
By reading the book, I was cleared of what to prioritize in thinking and that is my goal in life.
As I modified my goals, I must proceed with the action plans that will eventually reach my goals.
This book is very timely with the things I am doing nowadays and that is setting my goals, creating action plans to attain my goals and eventually working on it every single day.
I was glad to read this book today as it gave me the motivation to continue what I have started.
I highly recommend this book to everyone like me who runs a thousand thoughts on their heads every day.
Happy reading!
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April 2020
Entry No. 41: THE WORD I FEAR: REJECTION
Maybe I don’t fear this word but maybe because I just hate the feeling I am getting every time I am being rejected. It was a disappointing feeling because you expected a lot and hope for the best. And yet, it didn’t turn out the way you want it to be.
It feels like all my efforts and invested time and love for a certain thing suddenly put into waste.
What should I do now?
Should I stop now?
Am I not good enough?
Where am I actually good at?
I don’t know what to do anymore.
Do I always do wrong?
These are some of the questions that popped out of my head whenever I was or my works and suggestions were rejected.
While the other side of my brain is sulking, the other part is trying its best to be positive.
“It’s okay. We can try again next time. At least we learn something from here. We will do better next time.”
That’s how I console myself.
It may be painful but at least we’re learning from it.
We need no fear for rejection but just acceptance and learning and then correcting our mistakes or doing something to be better this time.
Let’s end this fear. And take this as a challenge for us to be the best that we can be.
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April 2020
Entry No. 42: LISTENING TO OUR SONG
Bitterly smiles were all over my face when I heard our song again.
It’s been ages when I last heard it and it feels good to listen to it again.
But now in a more different perspective.
I may have forgotten the lyrics but not the memories it covered. I tried to sing it too but I can’t keep up with its beat yet. Yesterdays were clear, happy moments were revealed once again. And it feels good to remember all of those things again.
This song was an inspiration for me to keep going, to still continue reaching my dreams and pursuing my passion.
Thanks for the song we created together.
Thanks for the memories we both shared.
Thanks for letting me feel loved before.
Thanks for the happiness I once felt when we’re both in it.
Grateful to have you before, grateful that somehow there’s us once in our lifetime.
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May 2020
Entry No. 43: MAY 2020
It’s been almost two months since the quarantine and there’s so many thoughts running through my head.
Will it go back to the way it used to be or we will finally adapt to the new normal? I am still clueless of how it will look like when we’re finally back to work. Are we going to make it? Or will the situation get worse?
I am not sure if people around me will get used to it. And are we ready for it? We have a huge population here in the Metro and it will really be a hard situation that our government can control.
The transportation, the workplace, the events we are attending and the places we’re going, how will it be?
Whatever will happen, may the Lord God will guide us.
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May 2020
Entry No. 44: I DON’T HAVE THE COURAGE YET
We are friends again. We talked for a short while. But I guess I am not ready yet to say to you what I really felt before when you chose to walk away from me because of your fear. You left me clueless and hanging.
I don’t know if I even have to tell you what I’ve been through when you hurt me.
Does it matter anyway?
Or maybe not and we just have to forget, to forgive and to move on with our separate lives.
I don’t want to hold any grudges anymore.
I am finally letting you go, our memories together, let’s just live it there, on the memory lane.
Though part of me still wants you to be my friend but I don’t know if it’s really possible without the thought that I am cheating my love.
You too! If you already have your better half now, I don’t think it’s the best idea that we literally became friends again just like the way it used to be.
I want to ask how you are, what you are doing now and if you are just fine but I am not sure if I have the right to ask you that.
Of all the things I want to say to you, I just wish you well.
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May 2020
Entry No. 45: NEW NORMAL
How are we going to face the new normal of tomorrow?
What would it look like?
I will work again next week and I just hope that it will turn out fine. Honestly, I’m still scared to go outside but I have to earn. I pray that God will protect me, protect us workers from any sickness and not just from the COVID19.
Initially, I will be working from home and on-site alternately. I am fortunate that I can walk and go to work. But how about those workers who travelled and commuted to work? Will they be safe?
Are we going to be safe?
I also pray that there’ll be a vaccine soon so people will not be afraid to go outside and live normal again.
All lives are affected, all over the world.
And maybe we just really need to get used to the new normal.
Gatherings are lessened, other events are cancelled or postponed, going outside in a cautious manner, being paranoid that people who will get close to you have the virus and then you will also get it.
I think that this will really be the new normal.
It is really scary outside.
But we have to move forward, we have to live.
Maybe we just need to have a better and wider perspective in life.
Let’s focus on the good side of this new normal.
Let’s choose to stay positive and happy.
We can do this.
As Mother Earth is healing, it’s the same us as her people. We learn, we accept, we will do our part as a better human being.
We can do this together.
Thank you, Lord God for keeping us safe and our loved ones and for letting us realize that small things that we took for granted in the past really do matter now. We became more appreciative of what we have and by just staying alive.
We will heal as one, the soonest.
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What do I want to write now?
Random Thoughts for today
I don’t know what to write.
I’m still on a procrastinating stage. I’m only 2 chapters away from the ending and here I am still not sure what to write next.
Am I not ready yet to finish it?
Or I just don’t know what will be the outcome.
Dear Self,
It’s been days since you are procrastinating.
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May 2020
Entry No. 46: DEAR SELF
Dear Self,
Please stay focused.
All throughout the quarantine period, all you ever want was to stay productive and be clear of your goals in life.
But then, you had a lot of procrastination.
Of course, it’s not bad to take a rest since we have a lot of free time now, but you became too much!
Please have self-discipline every day.
Push yourself to stay in focus. Stop procrastinating, stop getting lazy and stop having a very cluttered mind.
You had a lot of thoughts in your head.
You already know how to handle it, and yet you are not applying to yourself what you have learned.
Please be patient, stay motivated and disciplined.
You vowed to yourself that you want to end your rat-race life and start anew. Let’s stick to that goal.
We’ve got a lot of plans and action plans to do. It’s half of the year already, we need to do our plans to reach our goals.
Let’s do this. I believe in you. I trust you.
We can do this!
God is with us and our inspiration and goals are in us so we have to clear the path that we have to go through.
Thanks for listening!
Love,
Self
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May 2020
Entry No. 47: BOUNCE BACK
One thing I’ve learned today is that whatever bad things happened to us, we have to bounce back being a better us.
Imagine that we are in a very bad situation and we really feel so down as if the world turned its back to us. What we can do here is to step backward so we can take a step backward, or get out of that bad zone, and then assess what’s happening. Let’s always look on a bigger picture and create a wider and more positive perspective out of that negative.
It’s just like turning a lemon into lemonade. Lemon may be so sour but actually it has a lot of benefits and it’s only up to us on how we can taste it with sweetness.
We may weep at a certain point, but in the end of the day, we will rise up again and take advantage of that bad moment that happened to us.
Finally, we will be able to smile again and further, we can laugh our heart out.
In life, there will always be happy moments and the bad one, when we experience the latter part, we can always do something to be happy again. And by choosing kindness, the pros will always be on our side.
We have the power to make every lose-lose situation into a win-win one.
Just move forward and learn the lessons from our past mistakes.
After all, we are all human who can be imperfect.
Live life as if every day, we are better than our yesterday.
Live the moment but always look forward to better days ahead.
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May 2020
Entry No. 48: MY DREAM HOUSE
Have you ever dreamed of a better place to live in?
Here’s mine when I picture it out.
A tiny yet safe and sturdy house with a wide front and back yard,
It is surrounded by different plants of vegetables and fruits,
It also has a swimming pool by the garden,
Where simple cottages are in place
When you take a look on the inside,
It’s a loft style house.
Beneath the mini-bedroom is a mini-office
With a mini-library and a comfy couch
There’s also a tiny kitchen across
And a cute dining set.
There’s also the presence of a cute toilet.
The whole tiny house is air conditioned
And with wifi of course!
That will be used for work from home jobs.
And fresh air is everywhere
Nature is its neighbor.
The whole place is secured
It also has two dogs!
It’s also a bonus fact that there’s sea in front.
White sand will always touch my feet all day
Sunset is the most perfect view on the west
Sunrise is skin touched when you face the east
This is a dream that I can turn into reality,
Real soon….
Random Thoughts 2020
“Don’t Leave”
March 19, 2020
Don’t leave just because life becomes hard.
Don’t leave just because you are misheard.
There will always be a hundred reasons to stay
To breakeven that damned one thing to walk away.
To fall hard is easy but to stay is an everyday choice. And that choice is not an easy thing because our heart and mind are always in a battle. Most of the time, the heart wins and when the mind wins, the heart breaks, the happiness sacrifices.
We always opt to stay, but when it already hurts like hell, we leave.
Whatever we choose, pain will always be there.
It is when we endure, we’ll know if this choice is worth it.
I will always choose to stay. I will always choose to love you near.
I may get hurt, but since the day I chose you, I already know that in love, happiness and pain will always be separated through a fine thin line.
I won’t leave as long as you won’t.
But if you choose that painful choice, I won’t stop you either.
At the end of the day, your happiness is my happiness even if it will mean you leaving me.
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Thank You When You Walked Away
March 21, 2020
It was painful but I was grateful.
It was sad but I found a new source of happiness.
It was dark but I discovered new light.
My world has been shattered but I have explored the other side of it.
My heart was broken into million pieces but I became unbreakable.
I thought I would never move on but I have moved forward.
At first, I don’t know what to do but in the end; there’s a lot of things to do and I can still do it!
I thought that half of me was lost, but in reality, I was more of I can be.
Thank you so much when you chose to leave, thank you when you left me broken and lost. I’ve got another chance in life that I never thought that I can have.
It is really true that when we get our heart broken, we will try to do different things and we will go to different places that we have never been yet. We will also have the courage to meet new people and to escape out of our comfort zones.
When the love of my life left me, I finally had the courage to dare myself to do what I really wanted to do. All of those things were just on my bucket list and I have found the very perfect timing to tick it one by one.
Here’s some of the things I have done while healing my heart:
To volunteer. I went to a slum community, to feed hundreds of kids, to teach poor children and to give love, happiness, care to those in need. It wasn’t easy. I got scared to go alone. It was scary to go to a place I am not familiar with and to meet other people.
To meet new people. I have discovered that outside what I was used to, there’s a lot of people who grew up differently from mine. Their norm was different from my norm. Their lifestyle and family background differed from mine. But even though we all came from different walks of lives; I was fortunate to befriend some of them. It was such a fulfilling feeling to befriend strangers, to be an extrovert once in a while. I have also learned that people will really come and go into our lives. Some will stay but most of them will just pass by.
To go to places I have never been to yet. Travelling nowadays is the latest trend. Most of the people my age as young as they can be, invested in travelling. Experience will always be better than material things. Beaches are my greatest escaping zones.
To conquer mountains but actually, it is myself that I am conquering. Hiking also became a hype. From weekend night clubs into mountain summits just before the sun rises. People switched to hiking and camping instead of partying at bars. Views from the mountain top are better than disco lights. I was fortunate to hike more than 30 mountains as of this writing and I thank God for always protecting me whenever I go to another adventure. Through hiking, I also got to meet new people and some of them even became my friends.
To travel alone. This is scary but I was happy that in this lifetime, I’ve tried it. It is really scary but thrilling. And at the end of the day when you get home, you will be proud of yourself and be thankful for everything.
To write more. When I was broken, I was able to write more stories and it even got approved! I have regularly updated my blog as well. Through writing, I have expressed my true feelings and thoughts. This has been the best tool that I had when healing my heart.
To cherish more people who are around me. It is true that when someone leaves you, you will more appreciate those who chose to stay for you. We are more than lucky by having friends and family whom we can run and will never ever leave us. We can also share our griefs with them to lighten the burden we are feeling.
To learn new things like the Korean language. Crazy enough, I enrolled in a Korean class. And because of this, I have learned their alphabets and can read them. I may not fully understand yet what I am reading because it takes a lot of time to memorize their dictionary but it felt proud that somehow, I have learned a new skill.
Dear My Love,
Thank you for leaving me as I was able to do things that I thought I will never do and meet new people I thought I won’t have to. I’ve been to places I didn’t imagine to go without you. I’ve also got to experience life from another perspective. I thought my whole world was you but I’ve discovered that you were just a small part of it and there’s more to it. I’ve grown up! And became a better version of myself.
I will be forever grateful.
Yours,
Diwata Blog
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Bakit Kaya?
May 28, 2019
Bakit kaya sa tuwing iniiwan tayo ng mga mahal natin upang ipagpalit sa iba ay dumadating tayo sa punto na sarili natin ang ating sinisisi?
Ano ba'ng mali ang nagawa ko?
Saan ba ako nagkulang?
May nasabi ba ako?
Pangit ba ako?
Kapalit-palit ba ako?
May hindi ba ako nagawa?
Bakit kaya pilit nating inaalam kung ano ang mali, kung ano ang dahilan kung bakit tayo iniiwan?
Pero kapag nalaman naman natin ang sagot ay wala pa rin namang nababago.
Iniwan pa rin tayo.
Ipinagpalit pa rin tayo.
Paraan nga ba natin ito upang makausad na tayo sa buhay at matuto sa mga naging pagkakamali ng kahapon?
O trip lang talaga nating mas saktan pa ang mga sarili natin sa lahat ng mga negatibong isipin na ating ibinabalot sa buong pagkatao natin?
Siguro nga may mga mali tayong nagawa, o may mga hindi tayo nagawa para tayo iwan.
Pero kahit kailan ay hindi naging sapat na dahilan iyon upang iwan tayo.
Walang mali sa atin. Sadyang sa mga nang-iwan, hindi lang sila nakuntento, hindi tayo natanggap o mas pinili lang talaga nila ang ibang tao, bagay o pagkakataon kesa sa atin.
Desisyon nila iyon. Pinanindigan lang nila.
Kaya sa'yo, sa akin, sa ating lahat na iniwan, hayaan na lang.
Darating din ang tamang tao para sa atin.
Na kahit kailan ay hindi hahanap ng dahilan para tayo ay iwan.
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Wishes To Stars
July 12, 2020
Almost every night, I go to our balcony to look at the sky and search for the brightest stars.
And then I will close my eyes and say my wishes, prayers, dreams and goals.
It looks like I am talking to stars to grant my wishes but actually I am talking to myself and silently requesting to fulfill those dreams that I want to reach in this lifetime.
It is also an everyday reminder that I am living with purpose and instead of thinking and doing nonsense, I just have to focus on my goals while still being mindful.
Fulfilling dreams is never easy. But with hard work, perseverance, diligence and kindness, everything will fall into its proper place. And by God’s grace, if it’s His plans, He shall give to us whatever we pray for.
Let’s hold on to our dreams and day by day, let’s have actions to make it all come true.
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Just to Write What I Feel Right Now
July 24, 2020
It felt so sudden.
It still felt surreal.
We’re having the next big leap of journey in life.
Before I was alone, now we’re two as one.
We’re getting married!
We’ll be facing this life together from now on.
Few months from now, I’ll be a wife.
Welcome to married life, Self!
We’ll do it better soon.
And we will do our best to be a better half.
Stay committed and faithful.
Trust the Lord in His timing and process.
Everything will be alright in time.
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August 1, 2020
And then August came.
And just like that, we’re on more than half of this very challenging year.
My prayer will always be a cure for the whole world and everything will get back to normal. Many people lost their jobs and lives. I pray that we can start all over again.
I pray that the new normal will just be a better normal.
I pray for everyone’s hope to never let go.
I pray for my family and loved one’s safety, protection and good health.
2020 faced a lot of challenges and I really pray that for the rest of the months, days will get better.
We may be struggling today but He will always provide.
He provides financially, spiritually, emotionally, physically, mentally.
Just never lose faith in Him.
Laban pa rin, Kapit pa rin sa Kanya sa 2020.
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Kumusta Ka?
August 15, 2020
Have you asked yourself lately, how are you?
If not yet, have a self-check.
There are so many not so good things happening around us this year, and as we are all trying to survive, take a deep breath and say to ourselves that everything will be alright.
Our plans and goals may not be happening right now. They are being postponed or cancelled and it’s totally okay.
We just have to consider this as a long pause.
Maybe we are currently struggling financially, emotionally and even physically.
But we must not lose our faith.
We have to keep going.
Even if tomorrow is still full of uncertainties, there’s still hope for a brighter future.
Live now as happily as we could be.
Love more and be better.
Let’s lift up everyone’s spirit. We can do this! This too shall pass and we will make it no matter how hard we struggled today.
Kumusta ka?
I hope you’re still doing good.
Life Update
October 2, 2020
Time really flies fast.
It’s already October and we are in the fourth quarter of this very challenging and life changing year.
There’s still no vaccine yet and our country is still taking it slow of getting back to normal.
Other countries and places were already recovering and we are still far from behind.
But I still hope and pray that sooner, we can hug each other again freely.
For my personal update, I was a bit busy.
Actually, I was too lazy to put into words all my thoughts. I still have a lot of cluttered thoughts.
But I always remind myself to stay focused, stay focused on my goals and dreams.
I always visualize what I want to happen in my life.
I am always busy at work. And I am grateful that despite all the challenges and happenings around the world, I am still fortunate to still have work.
I cannot depend on anyone but just to myself and to God above.
Books and watching videos get me busy also nowadays.
Wedding preps are still high.
There’s still much to do and to buy.
And I always believe that God will provide all the things that we need.
In Jesus name I claim, everything will be alright, and just trust the process.
We’ll get there soon and soon our dreams as well will finally turn into reality.
The world may slow down a bit this year, but our faith remains and our dreams and prayers are still the same.
To God be the glory.
Hopefully, I can go back to writing novels again.
Soon. And that soon is now. I hope.
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October 3, 2020 – Saturday
The Full Moon Last Night (October 2, 2020)
It was a full moon last night.
I have read an article about full moon rituals for cleansing and saying our prayers or dreams. There’s no harm in trying so I gave it a try.
So, I put my prayers in my planner as it is my manifesting jar. Actually, I am used to writing my dreams, prayers and goals and hoping that it will all come true soon. I lit two incense and played a moon mantra to get cool, calm and attractive (attracting positive vibes). I said some prayers and intentions. In Jesus’ Name I’m praying that all my wishes will come true.
It felt light after I did the ritual.
As if my heart is feeling lighter. It also felt that my heart was cleansed from the negativities and toxicity.
I think I will research more about Buddhism. I’m curious about other religions also but of course I will remain faithful to God. He is my Savior and my Provider.
I pray to the moon that God creates that all our dreams and prayers will come true…soon enough.
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December 2020
December was a bliss. And it passed swiftly.
This was our wedding month.
And most of the time we were busy for our special day.
It was nice to spend some time with our families and loved ones.
I also took a break from work for two weeks and spent it with my loves.
This was a blessed month. Thank you Lord.
2020 was indeed a challenging year but it made us all strong.
Thank you for reading my Lockdown Journal 2020. See you on 2021!
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